Friday, July 09, 2004

The days continue...

Have you ever reached the point where you feel tired, confused, yet inactive and unproductive?

In the past 2 years, ALL aspects of my life has changed. My home, friends, lifestyle, church, priorities, parents, jobs, and school are all different. I felt as though I have been in a long transition with no place to call home. I feel as though I have lost stability in life. The only thing really keeping me grounded is God's revelation, perspective, and promise from the Bible.

I just typed a big, ole, long autobiography about the last two years, and then realized no one would want to read ALL THAT...lol. But in writing it, I recognized answered prayers and tactics which had to be done by God. When I was weak in my walk with Christ, I prayed for a church that loved God along with other things. Over a year, I left for Freed, my parents divorced which sent my mom to Houston, where I lived with her and I found the Alvin congregation. My first summer there was great. I immediately found a niche I could fill. I felt useful in a ministry serving my church. Afterward, I went to study abroad in europe for 3 months, came back, went to Freed for a spring semester and now I am back here in Houston.

I have lost stability and perspective. I've bounced around all over the globe, but nothing sustaining has ever come out of it. Over the past few days, I look at my life and realize that my minstry for Christ is weak. Just today, I watched a lesson from "An everlasting love" in which the speaker spoke about tolerance, comfort zones, laziness. It was a 45 minute video so I won't meantion everything. But afterward, I immediately asked my brother in Christ to pray with me about it. I realize that I have entered stagnation and it is making me ill spiritually. 2 timothy 3:12 says life with Christ is all about the persecutions. That doesn't mean that I should start beating myself with a stick, but I also realize that I have been living the stagnate life because of my comfort zone. Please pray for me and with me as I begin a transition from stagnation to active!

Because of His blessings,
Jeremy

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